I juz read berenice blog 'Interview with god'....this is not the first time i have look at that mind blowing story. Itz still arous me.....
Yeh...ppl rush to grow up then want to regain childhood when they r old....watsed their health to get money and use their money to restore their health when age....so true so true
From my mere short 21 years of life time....i learnt very little of life, i dun have any great ideas how to live or obtain a happy life.. I only know ' U should try to make the best out of everyday...whether itz up or down, u sshould enjoy it still!!'
My dear daddy and a lot of elders have given me advice of living, to my suprise , most of their answer is just to 'enjoy and cherish every moment u have for life is short and itz a progress'
To me....i find it very hard to do it....when i have a good day, i can be so positive and full of hope in future and look at surroundings and feel graceful what i have been given.
However, when real hard times come...i become upset, confuse and loss confiend in myself and disstress about furture ....i know all of these act is pointless and unnesscesaary, maybe i am still too young and my immature mind is not ready to take 'downfall and failure'
Indeed, itz hard to be positive when u r walking on a downhill road....i always try to overcome it yet fail...problems and diffculties nerver stop coming into my life and strik me again and again and then they walk away sliently...n come...n go......
Recently a dear fd of mine is going through some diffculties.....i cant help her except tryin to support her in other aspect...being supportive fd..
Then..i look back what i have now........i feel so graceful.....i have a good family, i am studying oversea which is a result of my dad years of hard work and my parents uncondition love for me, a gp of good fds and classmate who always been supportive, doing a course i use to dream of since year 10......what a beautiful life...would u agree?
Yet, i still complain complain and complain ...about the stress i get from my study, about not doing well in school.............All of these seems so small when comparing what i already have...a supportive dad who told me...' itz ok even u fail, i will still support ur study'...how reassuring., not anyone who is as lucky as i am ....get a chance to study in oversea..n i am complaning all the STRESS from my study....someone maybe juz wish for they have the CHANCE to be stress for study yet they cant, coz they have to work n make a living when they aare 18 or 20..
From today on...i will try my best in eveything ....n always feel thanksful what i already have...try to accept failing....and stay positive all the times..( ahha this might take me up to years to pratice)..yeh..i wish all the ones who love me and who i love...share this positivty throughout our life!
P.S: i also need to learn how to express my love for others better, esp for my family..reli feel graceful to have such a good family | 
